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I just can't describe what i'm feeling,it's like I don't feel nothing,but that's imposible,i mean,i am human,and the humans have feelings,even if we don't notice it.I feel empty and i can't handle it anymore.I was recovering,at least it felt like that,but once again i broke down,i started to cry for no reason,i just want to cut myself again,and a lot of times,but i know i shouldn't,so i don't,but i really,really want to cut myself and bleed a lot,i miss my blod,it sounds so weird i think? but it's normal for me,and i hate the fact that it's normal for me,i dind't choose to live like this,i wish more that anything that i was a normal teenager,to go out with my friends and stay until 3 a.m in a party,but insted of that, at 3 a.m. i am at the darkness of my bethroom,in my bed,crying,and thinking about if i should comite suicide or not.